Shaken and Stirred

Well that is day 2 over and done with. It has been a funny old day indeed. Am still not loving the shakes, am forcing them down with another drink at hand to wash the taste out LOL! They are filling though. The hardest part of today was lunch, my mum and her partner came for a visit and bought fresh cheesy buns, ham, tomatos and salad fixings for lunch, I had to sit with them and drink my shake all the while wishing they would eat the buns faster cos I really wanted one! I got through it though. I was hungry off and on again at work. I decided on  a whim to jump on the scales at work and miraculously was 148.9kg that is down 1.5kg!!!! OMG!!! totally makes the sculling shakes and hunger pangs worth it. Lets hope it continues in this way.

And because my mum came and i had work this afternoon, I didn't get the chance to go for a walk. I do feel bad about it but i figure I have already walked alot more than usual this week LOL. It is persisting down with rain at the moment and i am really hoping it will be gone by the time I go for a walk tomorrow cos I don't wanna get wet LOL. Usually I would make an excuse not to go if it was raining but I am determined to walk everyday while I am on this diet.

I ended up telling the girls at work that I am friends with about my diet, they are all encouraging and supportive which is nice, one of them said tonight "I thought you had put on weight, you can really see it in your face" - nobody has ever said that to me before, I have been spoken to cruelly about my weight but this was not said with malice at all. Mind you it has been years since anyone really commented on my weight to my face - apart from my doctor that is.

I am a bit shaken tonight and not making sense, on the way home from work, I took a corner too fast and aquaplaned a few times and nearly crashed into a concrete pillar. Really scared me - cannot die before I lose this weight or I will be soooo pissed!!1

I am again really hungry now, I am staying out of the kitchen cos there are hot cross buns in the cupboard and if I go in there I will eat one. Am drinking instead to fill me up. I had better go to bed, I have the next 2 days off - yay!! Hopefully my body will be a bit more used to being hungry by wednesday when I go back.